MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY BOXING DAY (:
Tuesday, December 26 2006
still didn't feel that i had enough of christmas shopping. maybe a new year shopping (:
finally finished my homework, as well as textbooks. all ready for a new year. only that my bag had a huge hole from the rain. BAHHHH. well, should buy the bag i wanted before school reopen. no stock no stock no stock. can't they fill up their stock even though it's after christmas?
i finally finished the whole series of "series of unfortunate events" YAY. the last book was wierd though. ohwells. the chinese new year performance is kinda got into big trouble. thanks to the petty lion dance teachers. as well as some "problems" in the lion dance part. AAHHHS. sickening. whatcan we do? instead of just saying jiayou and crossing your fingers for goodluck why doesn't anyone come and help? big fat meanies.
Thursday, December 21 20o6
Dear Santa,
i've been a really really good kid this year. i hope you can answer my wishes.
i would like to have...
- new wallet
- new school bag
- new study table
- new pencilcase
- hair straightener
- dance lessons again (:
- another nice top
- La'mour 7373 nokia collection
- acessories
- kimono doll
- a big big big big big big big big teddy bear

Hope to see you soon, Santa
i've baked cookies and had a mug of milk left on the table (:
Thursday, December 14 2006

The moment you mention she's having operation tomorrow morning, i had that wierd feeling squriming inside my body. yet i feign ignorance. yet i pretend like i hadn't heard of the news. indeed she's going for an operation tomorrow. yet i fear her leaving house. afraid she's not be back for only one day, but a few days, few weeks, but forever. mommy dearest, please do not leave me by my side. get well soon. i can't wait to see you come by my bed every morning with my glass of hand-made soy bean. i love you mom.












why do i feel so empty?
7 DECEMBER 2006
FUGGING day today. went to school like 8 was feeling blurry after that hell lot bottle of vodka. wells. had a spiltting headache. had to call dad to fetch me home again. the doctor was staring at my uniform. muahahahs. dad left me there at the clinic to have a sleep after the frigging pills. the doctor kindof of uncle. kind of a distance relative(:
after that CHEONG called me to return to school. took a cab. i realised i forgot to bring an mc and i missed dance. hell. went to family centre.
after the hell lot work. was really hungry. we finished our coins and suyi only need another 10 cent to buy her maggi noodles. we spent 20 minutes trying to find a 10 cent for her. in the end we didn't bother to help her find at all. cause' we're so pissed off that the mynah ate our food. BOOO. wells. we painted dragons on the costume. bet people will start saying wierd things again. RIGHT?
i'm feeling really tired now. loves.
-fleaflywendingmachine-
relax my dear chewan, you've gotta do what you gotta do. you can't just do everything for the sake of other people. don't do everything for them just because they told you to do it. and in the end they'll critise your work. all the work you've done, all the harkwork and sweat and time. instead of a pat on a shoulder or a word of encouragement. all you sucking pigs was a "EEEEE" or a disgusted look. try doing it yourself won't you. stop pushing all the work to others and get a life. don't try acting bimbotic cause' you aren't pretty or neither clever. your're just a huge fatass. it was really insulting.
we wanted to win. this will/is the last time i'm diong this. soon. i'll wash my hands of all these. it doesn't mean anything to you guys right?i appreciate those that manage to come and at least try to help out. don't blame me if i give you a disgusted face. cause you look just as disgusting as me. or maybe worse. damn you.
6 December 2006
hectic day again. same few people. more things done thou. had dance practice in the morning. i came really early and the seniors were like. "OMG. so early for what." hey come on. it's really nothing right? i was dozing off and finally other people started streaming in one by one. wells. erica almost bang right into my face during a dance routine. that was kinda funny(:
was playing that polar bear thing. heh. i was a LOUSY guru. i thought guru was the same as nurse so like.. wells. first timer(:
the costume top is really nice. although we had some gold paint eaten, accidentally:)
the counseller is really nice. she drives a mercedes. whee.
i hate these few days. i shall sleep in the family centre tml.
see you soon.

HAHAS. its a dough made of flour and we disfigured it (: whee